When I look back I see a time when I was forced to be with the same people every single day….
I see a time when adults with more wisdom and experience than I could fathom spent more than half of their time pouring into me willingly….
I see playgrounds, hurt knees and field trips with bad memories that we laughed about later…. It was worth it for that…
I see sleepless nights full of stupid dares and stunts that could have gotten us all killed….
I see silly jokes and songs made to help us study and borrowed pencils and paper…
I see food fights at lunch time and long walks downtown… We didn’t care where…
I see endless imagination and screaming at sports games…
I see shared tears and long conversations because it was just us and our parents couldn’t help us….
Today I miss being a kid… Today I miss high school and college…
Today… I miss all those people I was forced to spend time with every single day…
There will never be another time like those times again.
Don’t be too quick to wish away your younger years. The grass always looks greener on the other side, but it rarely ever turns out to be when you get there.
Focus on the present and you’ll only ever be worried about the grass beneath your own feet. That’s more than enough.
Stop This Train – John Mayer
We will walk this road called life together no matter how far apart we may be.
(Drawing by me of me and my non- blood sisters)
How did we get so far apart
along time's short avenue?
Did a small amount of distance
really tear our hearts in two?
I stood by you through light and dark;
I did not run away.
Yet suddenly what was a bond
has completely gone astray.
We swore we'd show the world
what it meant to be a friend.
But now I'm standing here alone...
Are you going to keep your end?
I promised I would fight for you
until my dying day.
No matter what it is you choose,
it will always be that way.
The silence may grow weary.
My heart may find it's death.
But I will not let go of you
Until my final breath.
“Yes! I would love to see you! Let’s get together soon… It’s been way too long…”
Words without the action to back them are empty… But money and distance are the killer of all relationships…
Sadly, this is the life we live. Scraping by and making promises, trying to convince ourselves there is some hope to carry them out, but falling flat on our faces and watching life take off without us in the end.
Patches don’t fix holes. They are a cover up; A lie. What once was whole is really whole no longer and will never be again.
Smiles and hugs don’t fix holes. They are actions that are ingrained in us from habit, but when our eyes no longer connect we are merely going through the motions.
We care but we do not love and if we did not both miss what once was we would slowly fade from each other’s lives.
Why do we pretend? Why do we fight for what has been shot to pieces and can not be repaired?
I’m not sure I will ever know…
But I will keep trying to patch up these holes. I will keep on pretending because I just can’t let go of those memories we shared.